sunday bloomers

 Miss Penelope is nine months (on the 20th) This has been the best nine months of my life. I love that cute little one so much. She's full of energy and is spoiled and knows it ( but I still give her everything she wants haha). She has the biggest deepest blue eyes you've ever seen. I am fully aware I may have posted to many photos for this blog post but I couldn't help it I'm to obsessed with this little dolly and this outfit. I spent way to much money at h&m yesterday but there new baby summer line is a absolute must. Seriously check it out you WILL buy everything off there shelf. Well happy sunday everyone I can't wait for memorial weekend next week, We are going to my nana's in Saint George,Ut and we love Saint George because it actually holds a special place in our hearts because thats the trip we took when we were first dating and it sealed the deal for us so I am so excited to take our daughter for the first time to swim and see what its all about. I feel like its the hype for Utah locals because it feels far enough away that you don't feel like your in a different state because it's warm and your only a hour from vegas.

Outfit detail:
Penelope's outfit details
dress: H&M summer line
Shoes:sweetnswag

inner demonds

I recently found out that a kid I went to school with was diagnosed with cancer after serving a two year lds mission in new york city. He started a blog sharing his thoughts as he goes through this journey. In one of his blog post he mentions about how he feels we all have some form of "cancer" to over come. I thought I would share my feelings of my "cancer" that I am trying to over come. 

 As I've mentioned in several of my post that i'm a young women married and taking care of our first born. That being said I feel like that has come with several insecurities. It's hard living in the world where a "perfect picture" is just photoshop away. It's hard for me to post whats really going on behind the picture because you don't want  people to judge you for the vulnerabilities or judge you. I've thought a lot about the mother I have become to my daughter and I always imagine what kind of life I want her to live and the young women I hope for her to become one day. The person I am is the person who sees these beautiful women with the perfect bodies,  the friends moving to different states, building houses, buying expensive things. It's hard not to want all of that and to be jealous of your friends like that but the mother in me wants to teach my precious daughter and future children that its okay to think you are beautiful, and it's okay to the person you want to be, Its okay not to have all the material things that are only going to last you in this life time. Because there is always going to be someone out there who doesn't agree with you or has something better than you.  Beauty isn't whats on the outside beauty is your heart thats on the inside. Acceptance has always and will always be one of my biggest trials in life and a battle I will face everyday. And thats okay I am going to be me and I like me. We have to rely on people who love you and support us and not those who hurt us and make us feel down on our selves. We all go through something that makes us sad but we can't let that drag us down. I am lucky I have met a man who works so hard for my family who is able to work so I can be a stay at home mom. I am lucky to be a mom at all many people struggle with that and I am lucky and so blessed that I can get pregnant. I am blessed and when you start thinking about all the many things we are lucky and blessed to have suddenly those trials become a little thing. 

 for updates on sean & his cancer check out:sean cancervive

Hello

hello! Yeah I am still here I didn't just peace out on the blog for good only temporarily mainly cause my life has been hip happening. We moved a couple months back and with my husband working and going to TWO different schools I basically am a full time mom with no seconds to myself. When miss Penelope is asleep I mostly just want to clean my dang place. I do not know what it is about having our own place but I just want to keep the house in order like all the time. I guess its just the crazy OCD i've developed (can you even develop ocd?). Anyways I figured not many people read my blog much anymore but I've enjoyed using it as a personal journal and I figured with the technology now a days this will be just as accurate as a journal( NOT) but its good enough. But any who I think I am going to start up this whole blogging thing again even though clearly its just another blog and I'll think of a cute clever blog name and web address (first time blogger I think so) and do some updating to this whole thing. I figured if there are more moms out there in the blogger community I could get some pointers instead of just making myself look cooler than I really am because lets be honest my best friend is a eight month baby and I see the outside world maybe 3 hours a day when I am at the gym and other then that I am pretty much strolling with my favorite baby accessory talking goo goo ga ga all day long. But hey thats a new mom for you and I would not have it any other way. Alright moms this is for reals!!! What do you guys do for activities during the summer!? With school out and the weather is finally starting to warm up I want to figure out what to do with me and penelope that is fun and active because lets face it the basement of a house isn't all to great when the sun is shinning I mean come on friends help a sister out. Well my friends this post was super random bless my soul for once but I figured I would stop by and say a hello i'm back people and I will be doing a lot of updating here in the next month even with my long checklist of much things to do. lastly I think it would be appropriate to leave this long unnecessary random talk by saying I want to apologize for the future if I might offend anyone in my posts I tend to not have a filter and I forget to think before I speak ( in this case write before I proof read) my friends and family tend to call me out on my unfiltered naughty mouth.

photos by:  jenisse photography