dear baby

Hello baby,

Hello its mommy here. Watching you while you sleep. Hoping that you dream good but missing you while you are tucked away in your crib. I remember when you were in my belly and I would sit in the rocking chair and dream about when you would get here so I could watch you dream and hold you while you slept through your innocents. I feel like just yesterday I was holding you for the first time and now it has been 184 days since then. I love seeing you grow from that first captured coo oh that was so sweet to that first time you rolled over to your back. Now you kick your feet, sit up, eat all by yourself and I think I see those cute teeth popping through. I love your sweet spirit that way you hold my hand when you are falling asleep or the way your face lights up when you smile. That laugh is pure divine sweetheart I love the joy you bring in my life. When I am having my mental breakdowns cause the house is a mess and everything in my life is out of control you still continue to love me through all my faults. I think the thing you have taught me most is pure happiness. I am going to love you more then you will ever know you are my whole world baby girl and I am glad you chose me to be your mom in heaven. I hope one day you understand you can move mountains. When you are hurting know I am crying right there with you. No one can ever tell you that you aren’t love cause mama loves you more then life. I love being your mommy

Love,

Your mommy

A perfect gift

I recently read a blog lately talking about the typical pregnant women who spend there pregnancy obsessing over their bellies. Taking maternity pictures of the father kissing the belly, the mother taking skinned photos of there in larged bellies, non stop blog post. She expressed how wrong and uncomfortable those who aren't pregant feel. 

1. It starts inside 

Going nine whole months to develop a human. All those nights you stayed up tossing and turning, eating all day everyday, the morning sickness, the swollen feet, the stretch marks and the preparation of the nursery. Those are things you do to prepare for the body and while doing those things you are only dreaming of what it will be like when your child gets here.

2.the love a mother has for her children

Its safe to say when having your child despite everything you go through when you are in labor when the child is actually there and you hold your kid for the first time it's a out of the body experience. That first time you see and hold your kid it's like you've known them your whole life. That saying 

" your the only one who knows my heart from the inside out" -unknown 

They are totally and completely dependent on you. You become a whole with that child. Your missing spot in your heart is filled the moment you feel that baby kick inside for the first time.

3. Everything that happens after the baby

That pre pregnancy body is a tough one to over come. Your hips and rib cage are now wider, you have stretch marks in places you didn't think you could get, your house is a total reck and you smell like spit up, you haven't showered in days, and you have gotten barely any sleep All because you would rather be with your baby and playing, cuddling and loving your child. That one smile makes everything worth it I promise

Being a mother is an amazing gift from God. The things a mother goes through for her children is a big sacrifice but we do it cause there is no greater feeling than seeing our beautiful creations grow into something beautiful and amazing.