baby daddy

 Happy fathers day to my smoking hot baby daddy! Today we celebrated fathers day for Travis. Since we've found out we are having a baby Travis has been talking about a baby carrier! So for fathers day I did just that.. Thanks to Ergo baby we got the cutest one out there. I've been really weird about this baby item stuff. I have notice my style is very neutral and I like things to be for both boys and girls.
 I thought I would try something different on the blog today and ask the Bumpdate from a daddy's point of view

BUMPDATE:
How Far Along? 30 weeks   Weight Gain: I've gained 5 pounds Sleep? 7-8 hours some nights she keeps me up and some nights she sleeps just fine Best moment of the week? I got a sweet gift from my wife and I can't wait to carry my baby girl in there Weird pregnancy moment? Seeing how her stomach will randomly go lop sited and feeling exactly where the baby is at in her belly because it's hard right there Movement: She only kicks when I'm not looking Food Cravings: Anything not fast food please! All we do is eat Anything making you queasy? nope What I'm looking forward to: The end of the pregnancy and having my old wife back

A midnight thought

I remember before I was about to get married begging my Savior for peace and comfort as I was about to enter the house of The Lord. The temple is such a sacred thing to me as it should be. I don't know if it was because I didn't go a whole lot in my youth or what but something about the unknown can always be extremely scary especially when you hear all these crazy rumors. When I went inside for the first time my thoughts and emotions were everywhere I was scared, terrified, happy, and peaceful all at the same time. But one thing I was not was sad.

 For the first time in my life I realized why this life is worth living. I had a very sad and traumatic time as a youth. Just like every other girl I struggled with body image thinking was I ever pretty enough and trying to fit into the it crowd, and wondering if guys would like me. It seemed like I just simply was not living with a purpose. Life is extremely hard and heavy when you don't know your important and don't know what you are here on earth to do. 

When you graduate from high school we all go our own different paths. Some move out of state, some serve missions, many go to college, and like me some just get married and begin to have children. What ever it may be it should be for yourself. I have known since I was a little girl that when I graduated high school I wanted to be married and have kids just as my mother did. Thank goodness I was able to find the love of my life at such a young age.  

When I met Travis the first thing I did was touch his hand. Now physical reaction is very important because you can tell a persons vibe very strongly with one simple touch. This touch was so powerful compared to what I felt was love with others I had dated. This touch was so powerful it left a mark on me and it was almost as if I couldn't be apart from him.  So soon after we dated for awhile we got engaged and a few months later married.

There I was a week before my wedding sitting in the temple pondering about this life. I remember looking over and seeing a friend of mine who was there to support me and she was sitting down praying. I looked over at her and I saw a glow. I've never seen a glow like this before. It was a light that was beaming so bright I couldn't help but cry I knew in my heart that she was a friend in the previous life.  After I saw her my soon to be husband at the time took me in the middle of this beautiful all white room and suddenly it was just me and him. I remember him whispering to me "doesn't this feel like heaven?" and it was just that it was heaven. I just know that when I die that is what I get to look forward to. Death is not a scary thing it's a beautiful thing. Although it's hard when we lose someone close to us our loved ones are not far they are simply right in front of us we just can't see them.

We are only here on earth for a short period of time and although we've all had our different trials in life we have to reflect on that experience. My mother use to comfort me after a boy broke my heart. At the time I thought why me. How could this happened to me. It may not be a death of a loved one or a terminal illness but for me this was something extremely hard on me. Especially because I just wanted to have a love like my parents. Two days before my wedding my mother sat me down and we started just to reflect on my life. My mother said to me don't you just feel like when we go through these traumatic experiences in life think that we are never going to move forward but what we don't realize is everyday it gets just a little bit smaller. And before we know it it's been years since this happened and somehow we  made it thus far. This life is short and sweet and nothing in life is easy it's just growing us stronger a little at a time. 

glucose

I seriously only have 11 weeks left! I feel like this has been the fastest nine months of my life. Today I got to experience life on the sugar side.. never thought in my life I would say this but TOO MUCH SUGAR IN ONE DRINK!!  

I went to my OBFYN and he told me I'm having a very good pregnancy! Despite the fact I'm rh- and had to get a shot that made me itch like crazy everything is look so great! I had a bit of a fall a couple days ago.. whoops I was doing laundry and being 5'3 I tried to put the towels away and so I climbed on top of the washing machine I jumped down and fell down! I tried to be very quiet because it was 12 o'clock at night and my husband was sleeping and in rushes my husband finding me giggling on the floor my husband was so worried and then he got mad at me! Everything was fine but another fall like that and maybe I won't be so lucky. 

well here I am today just finished my nasty drink. The only way to describe it is a nasty orange crush with a high dose of pure sugar. The worst part is it is done on a completely empty stomach and you almost feel a wee bit high. You have to drink it in 5 minutes and it completely nasty I just chugged two chugs and I was over it! After an hour of drinking it my blood was drawn and I was ready for a sandwich!  I don't think I'm ever going to be able to drink a orange drink, or otter pop again! I simply just feel icky after drinking this! 

Weeds

my husband is the absolute cutest thing in the world!

if that doesn't work here there link flower surprise

Story behind the video: 

This morning I was up at 9:30 running around getting some stuff done. Travis and I have one car 

(her name is dubsteppa) while I was a way Travis being the cutest ever decided he wanted to buy me flowers for no reason... Que the awes! He left his wallet in the car so he couldn't walk to get me flowers so what does my cute husband decide to do... Go outside and pick some flowers! Well unfortunitly we have no flowers to pick so my husband got creative and picked some weeds and made the cutest "flower" arrangement! It's seriously the thought that counts when you are this in love with someone! He also made me a card and picked out the colors and everything the card reads

"When a man wants a women to love him he buys her flowers, but when he knows she loves him no matter what, he gives her weeds" i love you

 I sure married a good one! When I got home I opened the door and instead of rose peddles it was leaves leading up to the 'flowers" and there he had made sure to record it! He's just to cute I tell you! The weeds were actually really pretty in a hipster kind of way. I guess you could say my husband and I like to pretend we are hipsters sometimes so it worked out perfect!

hello to the big THREE

As I just said bye to my 2nd trimester I say hello to my final trimester. It's been extremely emotional for me as i've sat thinking about what my daughter is going to look like, how she is going to act, and what truly brings tears to my eyes is the thought of her holding my husbands heart. Coming from being the only girl of 4 and my husband having no sisters truly makes me so emotional. These pictures were something I was really iffy about doing. I have never been the girl to show off my body image. If I have learned anything through out my pregnancy it's that the body is a sacred and extremely beautiful thing. The way of human life is incredible and knowing that I have created something with my husband that God himself can do is truly a blessing.

When I think about what I want for my daughter someday it's for her to know that she's something extremely special. I want her to learn and to know she's beautiful! I haven't seen her but I can tell you I know she's beautiful, because this isn't something i've picked up till now but have been told my whole life that we are all unique to which we all stand out. I want to teach her:
+to eat healthy so she feels happy
+to learn to love not to hate
+to see happiness is not hard to find
+to care of others before she cares for herself
+to know she's a gift from god

So here's to 12 weeks(maybe less) till I see this beauty....